XO, Til' WE OVERDOSE

amazing day! celebrated liddo brother’s culmination!

brat graduated 8th grade with HONORS! & received a silver metal [: i’m honestly a proud sister. got to spend time with him and the family <3

he treated me to movies & a liddo voodo doll which i am TOTALLY in LOVE with <3 

i realized this kidd is very observant. we were having a conversation on how different we both are & he was like ‘you’re so passionate! you either HATE or LOVE you can’t be anywhere in the middle. & i can’t do that.’ kidd made me realize that that’s ABSOLUTELY RIGHT!!! go figure! funny how they say you can learn a lot from kidds.

oh and another thing, he makes me feel OLD >:/ lol.

i feel dorky around him because he makes fun of my humor! JERK! lol 

anyways, after i got to spend some time with my love Gracie :] it was funn catching up…!!!! i needed some girl time. i feel so occupied with work, internship, & school. i’m just glad school is done with for at least a month or so. i need to go register at LACC :] especially since i’m moving back to H O L L Y W O O D !!!! wooo ! i’m sooo excited for this. i’m actually supposed to be sleeping already so i can meet up with my cousin bright & early. ok so with that being said, GOOD NIGHT! lol

it’s been a while since i posted anything here… been kinda busy! work and school have consumed all my time and energy… it’s ridiculous! i’m glad i’m almost done with school though. feels great to accomplish something positive!!!!! i’m super nervous though, i won’t deny that… and like so much has been going on with me too, like i’m overwhelmed. the good thing is that i have learned how to cope and deal with things in a positive way. i don’t rely on anything or anyone but myself which completely feels GREAT!

right now though, i’m super sick :(

been throwing up and what not… hate that everyone assumes i’m prego though. I’m NOT btw, already checked >.< i don’t feel like going into work tomorrow but i think i’m going to have to because no one wants to cover my shift!!! FML.

anywho’s i had this AWESOME dream last night… well i only remember the end but it was nice. i was able to hear my daddy !!!! and it felt like if i was really hugging him!!! which felt, INCREDIBLE!!! i miss him terribly. like i been having good and bad days. some where i’m able to remember him and smile and others where i can’t help but cry. his one year is in august and as it is approaching, MAN! it’s hard… like i won’t lie, it still wont sink in that he’s gone… there has been days where i get home and i feel like he will be there but i realize he wont. i know he’s up there watching over me, it’s just imisshim! can’t help it. but i know he’s proud of me… i’m trying to really be a good person now. someone who is able to get back on her feet even if she falls.

i been worried about my grandma :( she’s been getting real sick lately. i worry because i don’t want her to go either. i know i shouldn’t think that way, but i mean she’s older now, it’s bound to happen. i hate it because she’s practically the last person i have… i just hope god let’s her have more years!!! she’s truly a strong person though, i admire her!!!!

anywho’s i guess i just wanted to get all this off my chest…

i hope i feel better by tomorrow !!! sheesh, i hate being SICK :/

oooh! i might get me my bike this wednesday! i’m soooo excited! :D

feels great being able to afford all the things i WANT and NEED !!! (:

anywho’s….

THAT’S ALL….. [: